i am stubborn.

i am stubborn. period. i hate being ordered around. especially when i see there isn't any point for you to order me around. supposedly YOU have YOUR PRIORITIES right? well DEAR, i have MY PRIORITIES too!!! when you have just INFORMED me about this YESTERDAY!!!! if supposedly you have 'known' about this thing prior, why did you have to make other ENGAGEMENTS??? i am so damn pisseddddddddddddd. and i'm not in a mood to ENTERTAIN you and your priorities!

cravingssssss!

okay due to this fasting month and this is just the second day i'm writing a special entry on FOODS. hehe. the foodSSSSS that i'm craving for be it i can@cannot have it (as i can only get mostly in auckland)...

*drum rollings*

10.

heat pizza @ wellesly (mount street)! oh my god. rindunyeeeeeee. back during the days when i am penniless, i will just buy a cheese pizza that cost only $5 (NEVER EVER convert when you're living abroad). even the cheese pizza is deeeeeee-liiiiiiii-cioussssssss. and then i also like to eat BBQ chicken pizza. pizza hut okayla but the cheese is not the same as the one in NZ. and don't even get me started on the pizzas @fresco hmmmm though a bit costly lagi la sedapppp. suddenly i feel sad that i don't have a picture of me @heat pizza =( because kan dekat uni aje. buat apela nak amek gambar...

9.

damn ittttttt. i miss ikea's meatballs too. one of my bestest memories last year was when salina, fina & i wanted to go jogging @bangsar... when we were about to go jogging it started to rain heavily so instead of going back and eating at SCUD(ipba's food) we decided to eat @ikea. *salivating* even the egg tart is delicious. WHY am I living in JAYBEEEEEE?? urgh!!! even when bored after class pun can go ikea cause dekat je. now i only have Tebrau city =(

8.

1901. nyum nyum. eating eat while watching movies. at least this i can still get it in jb but i have to get it @leisuremall @gsc. so whenever i go and watch movies there i'd buy it. *my stomache is singing lapar2*

7

St pierre's sushi. the one that can be bought @uni. in malaysia got sushi king and it's not that satisfying and it's not cheap either. small2 salmon. i don't like. LOL. and also onigiri. OMG. i miss eating GOOD SUSHI. and also takoyaki.

6

good old korean food! i've never tried korean food in malaysia cause i don't want to spoil my taste buds but having good korean food can make me happy. BBQ chicken & beef, fish egg hot&spicy soup, hot&spicy squids and the FREE side dishes. hehe. and then i'll eat in the mangkung besi and besi chopsticks which will make me feel very ngiluuuu. hehe.

5

italian denso @chocolate boutique @parnell. omg it's like the MOST DELICIOUS CHOCOLATE ever! i even have a picture of me eating it but malas to find it. it's warm & deliciousssssssss. it's what i'd call perfection.

4 FISHES in auckland. SNAPPER in particular. be it snapper fish&chips. or even the one that i'd bakar on my own. i still remember in the old days when baru masuk allowance we'd go to Taiping and buy it cause snapper is a bit more expensive la then dory.

3

this i can get in here. BUT in JB i don't where to get. if in IPBA i always buy it @pasar kerinchi.

2 USJ4 Bazaar Ramadhan! I simply LOVE the chinese muslim food. The claypot chicken rice is delicious!!! ade ikan masin and chilli potong. oh now i miss USJ plakkkkk. when i'm in USJ i'll be like kat JB got this this and thattttt. LOL.

1 THE MOST IMPORTANT AND MY UTMOST FAVOURITE:

oh my god burger fuel rindunye!!!! my favourite is C N CHEESE. i wonder when will i ever go back and eat there. =b. the burger is SO BIGGGG that i always end up not finishing eat. haha. i love eating the fries served with aioli dip. AHHHH-MAHHHH-ZINNNNNGGGG.

okay actually i'm craving for a lot more FOODS. like suddenly i'm beginning to be more REALISTIC and down to earth by thinking about Char Keow Teow and chocolate indulgence @secret recipe. hmmmm. this could be a neverending entry. so GOODBYE for NOW.

*hugs*

it's sad. so sad.

it's sad. so sad. it's a sad sad situation. and it's getting more and more awkward.

i don't know why sometimes i tend to make silly mistakes. always. not sometimes.

i want to focus on just one thing in life. but, i get distracted easily.

it hurts me so much in the chest.

i wish that every single matter that i need to deal with would take turns and queue up.

cause when everything comes to me in one go, i could not handle it.

and i tend to drop things easily.

and right now i'm having another fatin haya's meltdown.

i just won't shave my head (trying to insert a 'humorous' element)

stylish interior. i dream of you.

after stressing out over my work i decide to watch SATC 2 again. YES. i like to watch the same movies over and over again. oh i just love carrie and big's apartment. as much as i love the traditions in charlotte's house and the all white kitchen, i feel like carrie's apartment has more personality. it doesn't only reflect her but both of them. elements of masculinity like its linear midcentury furnishing and dark woods and with feminine accessories like whimsical rugs and cheerful botanical themed fabrics complements the space. when i own my own place it will be inspired by C&B's apartment. i don't think i'd want an all pink apartment. LOL.

his and her's wardrobe. heaven.

oh my god. i really like to dream. haha. now i'm trying to find the curtains in C&B's apartment so that when i do own my own house, i have my inspiration already. =b

at last found it. but this picture is not that good. the curtain&colour looks better on screen. look at the flowers on the coffee table. i adore it. the windows are a real classic.

final scene. the view of the apartment at night. oh i'm definitely drooling over their apartment.

the beautiful kitchen. =)

okay. bye for now!

in loving memory

in loving memory of past life. i know that i should be punished and i should stop hurting people. i complicate my own life and i tend to screw things up. twisted is my middle name. i hope that GOD would make me strong at this period of time.

When I'm lost in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way, when I'm scared losing ground
When my world is going crazy you can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield, from the storm for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

When I lose the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything 'cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend you're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night

For a shield, from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong and for the will to carry on
For everything you do I turn to you yeah

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change for someone to lean on
But for a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who I can run to oh I turn to you

For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

was looking through my videos and found this. i miss studying life =(

very very tak kesah.

i am in a very very tak kesah attitude right now. before i start to dive into my troubles, i've just realised something:

Leighton Meester

Olivia Palermo

They're like sisters! They are so ALIKE. I know the City is like so dead right now that i still care for Olivia Palermo but since I am reminiscing GG old episodes, I can't help to notice the similarities between them....

my feelings: i feel so stupid. for doing stupid things. even when it's not worth it.i've hurt people along the way.will i ever grow up?

Thirsty?

Filico (a Japanese company) is selling luxury water in sparkling Hello Kitty bottles. The water comes in five different flavors: Red (friendship), Pink (cute), Yellow (heartful), Green (wish) and Lavender (sweet). The bottles cost $100 or $500 for all five. You can also add $25 to get your name engraved. Would you buy one?